Job-like?

I must admit that im feeling a little Job like . . .

So, im at Bible college doing what God wants. Ive found the husband that God wants me to be with and im trying to deal with that. Ive just come back from Methodist Youth Conference where i did Gods work all weekend. What do i get in return? A cold.
Now come on, its quite clear that a cold is the last thing i can deal with! The exaustion i can sleep off, the lack of appitite i can deal with (Vitamins and tomato cuppa soup!), the huge amounts of work i can just about handle, but a cold? Now thats not fair!

Im one of those people that God just doesnt really talk to. I swear he actually sits some people down and has long conversations with them. But not me. Im one of those people that has a couple of options to choose, randomly picks one, hopes for the best and sometimes God turns around and says 'Well done, you chose correctly, have your free prize!'

I guess i am feeling a little angry at God for this, after all, he alone knows how busy and overworked i am, he alone knows i need my health. Without my health i cannot solve the millions of other problems!

Job loses everything he has until nothing is left, even though he did nothing wrong. When Job compains, God puts him back in his place. Job realises that God is so almighty that his suffering is irrelevant, only God matters.

Maybe God is trying to teach me to depend on him by removing my health from me. Thats all well and good, but im sure there are better ways he can teach me a lesson! Miraculous healing would be pretty good . . .

Its not like im blaming or cursing God. I know it could partly be my fault, but still the question remains - why has God allowed it to happen?

Sarah x